The transformational imagination
Imagination is light. Today, as I was coming home after rehearsal, I noticed that the sunlight streaming into my room at sunset was completely white. It was not the warm hue of the golden hour when any photograph taken becomes divinely magical. This pre-sunset light has a white, silvery tint, making it hard for the human body to breathe, while all other senses are filled with ecstasy.
The white Light
Last August I began to see this white light on a regular basis, most often in the room where I see the sun during the day or at sunset. That was when I started experiencing physical difficulties until the sun went down. Before that I would strive to be in the sun, to sunbathe and watch the sunset. If you are currently imagining a warm yellow or orange glow, that is what always attracted me — this nourishing sunlight.
At the same time, last August, I learned that the essence of Yeshua dissolved into white light, or in other words, Yeshua became this white light. It was then that these glowing white shades appeared, which I observed on special sunny days. On such a day, when I was talking to friends over a video chat, we all noticed that the camera was flooding and illuminating my image with white light behind me, even without direct sunlight.
Today was one of those days. I woke up too early, before I had to leave for my dance practice. I felt that getting up was too difficult, and I started to breathe. I didn’t want to cancel everything because the dance studio had already been booked. Then, about an hour after I began breathing, a woman rang the doorbell. She needed me to answer a question about new cameras at the entrance to the building where I live. She was surveying all the residents and was surprised that I hadn’t woken up yet at 10 am . When I closed the door behind her, I realized she had come to me as energy to help me finally awaken and go to the studio to create my new choreography. I was riding the subway, and at one point, I felt a light breeze on my forehead. That’s how I usually feel Yeshua’s presence nearby. This has always happened when I was alone with myself. And now, it was the first time I felt it among people and mass consciousness.
Feeling
What I am experiencing now can be described as "I sense myself as I am." The key word here is "sense." For the past year, I have really wanted to dance something for myself, to create some beautiful choreography that has flow, fullness, and form — all gathered in a single design. And all I could do was create simple dance routines for work, for teaching others who are just learning to dance. There is a certain charm in this, but I got a little bored, if you could feel me. I wanted to create something extra beautiful, like before in my dance life, that touches me deeply inside. That’s how I created my dances: my choreography always had a story, flow, and fullness. And I was just looking for the right form to express it.
And last month I had a 10-day trip. Usually I listen to a lot of new music every day. One day, I came across a mix on music platform I use, and at the very end, I heard that track. You know, It’s like that perfect dress — you can't pass by it. I immediately understood that I wanted to dance with that because it was the very resonance I had been searching for all last year. And here it is, right in my ears!
I returned to Moscow and began to create. If I say that I really like it, then I would say nothing. I am just elated! I feel what I haven’t felt for many years. There is both passion and inspiration, as well as flow and fullness! I have this feeling that I have started living anew with this dance.
People who have watched my videos before didn’t always feel what I was conveying. But in person, it always worked. As a choreographer I grew up surrounded by other choreographers and dancers — both professionals and amateurs. In this environment, it’s customary to be able to show well. And with that, your technical side of dancing must be excellent. Otherwise, you are not noticed or acknowledged. At some point, I realized that it was not only about technique but about feeling. What you can feel through your body is just as important as the technique you use to express it. And I chose the other way, allowing my body of consciousness to be absorbed.
I will record a video for this dance when the training is completely finished. And it doesn't matter whether the audience can feel it or not. I realized that the only thing that matters to me is to feel it myself. It’s like self-love, it fills you from within and then spreads all around you. And then it doesn’t matter what others feel or don’t feel. Ultimately, it all comes down to that very point of consciousness within you. What other people think of you is none of your business; it’s their business. Your business is what you think of them.
I see that this light transforms not only the shadows we carry with us. Particle rotation speed , amplitude and frequency — all of this is changing now. And with this, gravity and old patterns of how we did things before dissolve. The "IamConsciousness" is gaining momentum on the planet Earth. And we all are being asked to buckle up.
The photon belt
And one thing I would like to share. About 5 years ago, when I was in a deep physical transformation, I saw what could be described as a photon belt. It wasn't around the Earth (it was too early 😄), but around my body. It was to my left. Imagine liquid, transparent, faceted crystals, like large diamonds, shimmering in various colors and moving, rotating. I saw how they suddenly appeared around me to the left, extending to the center of my body like an aura, at some distance. They were fluid yet maintained their shape. It resembled a photon belt. The whole performance lasted for about 20 minutes; it was incredibly bright and sensible experience, like an incredible light effect, like a rainbow.
The next time I saw it was a year ago, in winter. I was alone and had been consciously immersed in crystal energies for several days. The liquid crystal belt appeared again, to my left. It started as a small arc near my feet and rose upward. As it ascended, it grew larger and wider, like a blossoming wing. It was just as radiant and beautiful experience — mesmerizing!
Finally, this year in February, I was walking home from the store. As I approached the entrance, I saw the belt starting to grow from the bottom up, but this time it was on my right side. For a whole month after that, I saw it both on the left and the right. In total, I think it has happened about 8 times. The last time was last week.
Each time it looks like an incredible glowing light show. And I can say it is a show of myself — my crystalline light show in all its glory. If you have experienced something like that, I would be delighted if you wanted to share it with me.
And for now I am waiting like a child with excitement for what will happen next. See you next time 💛
