Joyful letting go
It seems that "letting go" has become almost a job for me in recent years. I have become a "master of easy letting go”. Sometimes it's simply to release what no longer serves me. And sometimes, it's to refresh my energy. After all, I know it returns if I choose to play with it.
I will tell a little story about my recent letting go that happened in my physical life. Since September of last year I had been teaching at a dance school, which I wrote about in the previous article. Later in December I began to feel strong pushing or an impulse within me that it was time to leave. My rational mind didn’t understand what was happening. I was teaching in the group of teenagers, and I enjoyed dancing with them most of the time. We were even able to perform with them.
January arrived, the time after the New Year. I decided not to rush in December, I knew I needed to let all the dust and emotions settle. During this period, my soul started to show me “pictures of awareness” about why I needed to leave. It was drop by drop until my rational mind gave in. I began to see the discomforts I hadn’t noticed since the first days of working at the studio — the unbalanced energy of giving and receiving, the attitude towards the development and support of new groups, and so on. It was a whole set that unfolded from month to month. I simply let my light shine as I know how and as I enjoy.
You know, when I look at the sun in ordinary human life, at a sunset for example, I see nothing but the sun. It’s true. It catches my attention and fascinates me. The same goes for my light: when I shine, I notice nothing around me except that light. I don’t think it’s bad. I also don’t think it’s good. I don’t believe I am less or more aware. I am who I am.
By mid-January I clearly understood it was time. I informed the management at the studio, and I decided to tell my students on the last day, so they wouldn’t leave or get upset too early about having a substitute teacher. Those two weeks were a bit emotionally distant in every sense. And just yesterday, on my last day there, everything changed suddenly. At the end of the class, I told my students that I was leaving. They were a bit upset, and I also felt that they were letting me go. The studio leaders also had a heartfelt conversation with me; we hugged, and I left feeling satisfied. I could feel that everything was in its place, that it was meant to be. It was as if all these people knew it was time for me to go. You see? On a soul level, on a consciousness level, all people feel, even if not everyone chooses to acknowledge it. I felt relieved and at peace with the situation. I knew I had done my “job” there, well and one hundred percent. And I knew it was time for me to move on. Of course, I want to continue teaching, with new energetic settings and new choices. I let go in order to find again.
Letting go easily is a skill. I trained for a long time to reach this level of ease regarding people, things, and places. Nothing is eternal. And! Nothing is more important than myself and my truth. You know when to leave. After all, energy always shows when it’s time. It also clearly indicates when it’s better to stay. To distinguish between these two things clearly is also a skill. That’s how one becomes a master.
Have a great day, dear friends! 🔆
